I have been pondering a question for the last few days. I have been wondering why it is so incredibly easy for me to believe God with all my heart for the forgiveness of my sins, for salvation by His blood, and for eternal life in and with Him, yet I struggle on a daily basis to trust Him (really, really trust Him) with our basic human needs. I have been examining my heart seeking an answer to this very important question.
Just moments ago, I was talking to Him as I was cleaning my bathroom. I was thinking about the end of Matthew chapter 6. I was doing a kind of mental review of all that it has to say and talking to my heavenly Father about it. When I got to the part “…the Gentiles seek after these things…”, I heard that gentle, but unmistakable whisper...
“You are not a Gentile.”
I thought to myself, “I am not a Gentile. I am a child of God. I’m a daughter of the King. I am a co-heir with Christ. I have the same standing as my brother, Jesus.” I let those waves of truth, love, and standing wash over me as I felt the very presence of the Lord, comforting me with His Spirit. And then, I felt a gentle rebuke. I’m not sure if it was His rebuke, or my understanding of my own failure. Either way, I realize I am behaving as though I am a Gentile. I am thinking like a Gentile. I am living as though that is my standing in life. This ought not be so. I am a child of God! I am a daughter of the King! I have a Father in Heaven who delights in giving good gifts to His children, who is our Jehovah-Jireh, (our provider, see Genesis 22:12-14) who is bigger than any storm or challenge or problem. My Father is the Creator of the Universe, the One who holds all things together and yet I worry about how He will provide for us! Oh, Father, forgive me for living as though I am a Gentile. Thank you for revealing to me my incredible need to live a life true to the person you have made me.
So I ask you, dear Sisters, are you living as though you are a Gentile?
He whispered to my spirit, “You are not a Gentile”.
Let us live our lives with the unwavering truth that we are daughters of the King!
”Yet to all who receive Him, to those who believed in His name, He gave the right to become children of God.” ~John 1:12
“And God raised us up with Christ, and seated us with Him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus…” ~ Ephesians 2:6
“Every good and perfect gift is from above coming down from the Father….”
“And He is before all things, and in Him all things consist.”