I was pondering this question today when I realized that I am not always living my life as if I truly believe what I profess to believe. Some of the things that come out of my mouth are in direct conflict with some of the tenants of my faith. Too much of my time is spent planning, pondering, and worrying about things that haven’t even come to pass. Yet, I know that this is something the Lord has asked me specifically not to do.
When our recent financial trial first began, my husband and I expressed confidentially to ourselves, to each other, and to others that we had nothing to worry about. God is going to provide. He is always faithful, He will never forsake us, and all of our needs are truly met in Him. I was proud of us for our attitude, but it seems that lately, even though we are still saying the same words, the stress level is starting to take its toll. The enduring and persevering are getting more difficult as time progresses.
Our beliefs about who God is haven’t changed, yet our words, our thoughts, and our attitudes seem to have to some degree.
Jesus said, “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34
We know that Jesus said this. We have it memorized. We truly believe it. We want with all of our hearts to obey it. Yet, we find ourselves worrying about what will happen when the truck breaks down, when we can’t make the mortgage, when the grocery money runs out, where the next paycheck is going to come from, and a host of other concerns.
Why are we doing this when we know we shouldn’t? Why does what our minds think about conflict with what our heart knows about our God? Could this be the reason for our trial? Could this be the lesson He would have for us?
Sometimes there are more questions than answers. More confusion than clarity. More worry than trust. More stress than faith. The good news is that He is with us. He will teach us. He will guide us and grow us. Even when it’s hard.
Thank You, God, for showing me that right now, my faith isn’t matching my life. Thank You that You are with us through this and that we will come out of it knowing You better. Help us to see You, to seek You, to know You, to hear You, to obey You, and most of all to live out all that we believe so that our lights and lives can shine for You. Amen.
Let us live out what we believe on the inside!